a moment of quiet introspection

and it is time to finally write again

now again is it time to finally write

to write finally

forgive me I have cut my hair again

and I have accented the other side of my face

pure chance

coincidence

but we are to new things and I do not need to fear old routines

in favor of developing new ones

behaviors will remain fairly consistent, however

it is my opportunity

mine solely

to effect positive change on my interpretation and feelings 

regarding these behaviours

tonight was a big night and I need not live so largely

largely will I live

so I must then first forgive myself for living so largely

having feelings that feel negatively about it

forgive the feelings

forgive myself again

I am wonderful and beautiful and my intentions are pure

I love everyone and not only myself

for I am nothing without them

god bless all of these people and my opportunity to live their lives for this instant

I am enjoying myself

I hope this continues as long as I do so

I like the challenge and the opportunity within that framework

to apply myself to understanding and succeeding

gracious

I met the kitty again, tonight

Mr. Grey and White kitty

I might pay him another visit although the sauce did make it into the fridge

my obligations to this day are complete

however

I reasoned with kitty through subsequent visits

which do I prefer?

loving and losing or never loving at all?

in that context I am loving and losing

there will always be kitties, I told him

my hands always magic their work will

thank you again God